The barrage comes hard,
I’m forced down to the depths of my own emotions
every time we discuss it.
I’m caught in the rewind
while clawing up at the future, the now.
It will take years
to peel off every layer of doubt I’ve accumulated,
every word that the self-proclaimed judge and jury
have balanced on my shoulders.
But I can always look into your eyes.
in the starless night.