I walked away. I did.
I failed to see the strings still attached,
the cable wired to my head
to replay
the days during the days during the days.
The smell, the ichor from inside
clinging to me, polluting my thought process
so I cannot build the pathways forward.
I have to sever this connection,
wash away the dirt
so when I look in the mirror,
I see myself and not the paint.