I crave it. The knowledge
you have, the hours of practice you’ve put it.
I want to gain it for myself, I’m not afraid of putting in the work
but how can I train, how can I improve
when being observed
freezes up every thought I have?
The frustration at myself builds.
The explanations are clear, so why do I misunderstand?
There must be a way around it. Trust that I won’t be judged
when my work needs correcting.
that I don’t have to be perfect
from the start.